Tuesday, 14 April 2015


So today is the day I leave Roxby Downs!
I am horrible with goodbyes, I deal with them in two ways,
Way one; I blubber, and howl and cry like a big baby while saying goodbye.
Way two; I act tough until I am alone, until I can't take the pain of being sad anymore, and burst into tears, usually in an airport toilet, and I come out of the cubical looking like a dirty crack whore that has just snorted lines off the toilet seat.

We are leaving here early hours of tomorrow morning. I don't even know how I am going to say goodbye to Jakobi, Alexis and Tonya.
I would like to say a massive thank you to them for letting me stay with them, and Kobi for letting me sleep in his racecar bed. I have had such an amazing time and can't wait to see you again.

So it's snowing in Dunedin at the moment, so that will be a shock!! It has been so hot here!!

I love road trips! I can't wait! I have a playlist and snacks sorted!

I get to catch up with Kat tomorrow which will be amazing!! Feels like I haven't seen her in forever!!

Super Excited!!


Monday, 13 April 2015

I feel weird! Like not sure what I am supposed to do.
I am excited to go home! But when I get home what is going to happen? 
Like when I left, I loved it, I just got home from quiz night and a few drinks. 
The last person I spoke to was Greg, he gave me a kiss and said see you when you get home. 
Well I have been in Australia for a month, I got one snapchat from him and that is all! I messaged him on Saturday and I never got anything back. So I don't think he will 'see' me when I get home! I have heard from Jeff, his work mate more than I have heard from Greg, which is a bit sad! 

Completely different subject, I would like to apologize to Antony, I always go on about how much of a dick he is, but I was wrong, he is actually a really nice and amazing person. I think he just sucks to work with. He has probably been one of my truest friends since I started at the Robbie. 

That is all, just had to get that off my mind.


Sunday, 12 April 2015

So where do I start?

Well my holidays are almost at the end. I have enjoyed my time in Roxby Downs! I love being able to wake up in the same town as my beautiful Niece and Nephew. I had an amazing time catching up with old friends, and making new ones. Last night we had a little shindig at Nathan and Steven's house, like a housewarming/ my going away! It was great! I challenged Matt. I told him I could finish a bottle of vodka before he could. Well to my surprise, he actually finished it. I did too, but that isn't unusual. He was so drunk though, I wouldn't challenge him again. When he gets drunk he gets annoying. We went to the club at 11.30 I had a drink but I think I realized that the Roxby club isn't really my thing anymore. I don't know whether it's because I think I have grown up a bit, or I'm just used to chilled out pub sessions back home, but from the minute I got there it was all drama and annoying drunk people. Alex didn't come to the BBQ last night because she had a hens night. She ended up showing up at like 8.30 going mental at Andrew and took Sofia away. When I got to the club she went on and on about how much of an irresponsible wanker Andrew is. I was there and Andrew was fine. She wasn't only bitching to me, she was telling pretty much the whole club. I don't see how it is anyone but their business. But, that's none of my business I guess.
So there is only three more days until we jump in the car and head down to Adelaide for the night. I can't wait. I can't wait because, I can't wait to see Kat, I can't wait to get in that plane the next morning and have the trip of a lifetime. I can't wait to catch up with Peter. I can't wait to go home and start our new adventures.
So since I have been in Australia, I haven't really heard from Greg, like at all! I heard from him once and that was it. I messaged him last night, it said he seen it, but never got a reply. So I have no idea what is going on there.
I have been talking to Jarrod quite a lot since I have been here because he was going through a tough time with Jazz. He got drunk and they were having a fight and he accidentally slammed her hand in the door. She spent 8 hours in A&E and he was so drunk he couldn't function enough to even take her down there. Usually I would have been like well that is your issue mate! Fix it yourself,  but there is something about them two that make me believe in love. The way he looks at her, the way he smiles when he talks about her. But she left town and told him not to ever talk to him again. He was just falling apart, and apparently I was the only one he could open up to about it. So I helped him out, and now they are talking, not back together but they are talking and she is back in town now, so that's a start. He booked Bluestone (My favorite band) to play at work, as a little thank you! So I am stoked!
To be honest, I am quite excited to go back to work! I didn't think I would be, but I think a break done me the world of good.
Bring on Thursday! Can't wait to get home!


Tuesday, 7 April 2015

Dear Future Husband...

Dear future husband,

Here's a few things you'll need to know,
(Yes I know that's part of a song but hey, it works)

I need you to say you love me, everyday, even if I am being a total cunt! Leave me cute little notes. The lamer they are the cuter I will think it is.
I need you to message or call me out of the blue just to see what I am doing. I will do the same for you.
You need to ask my parents for my hand in marriage, It is lame, and even though I know they will say yes, I have watched a few chick flicks and think it is the cutest. I don't mean message them, I mean go and see them, and if they are in another country, Skype them.
Give me space, don't be too clingy, let me go out for girls nights, let me go out drinking with my work mates, no need to worry because you will be the one I come home to every time. I will do the same for you. If we can't have our own lives we will turn into a grumpy old couple. No one wants that.
Take me on date nights, even if it is only once a month. Put the effort in, never stop wowing me. When I get dressed up, tell me I look beautiful. I will probably come back with something like you are such a gay cunt, but what I really mean is thank you.
You will need to laugh at my dad jokes and puns. You will need to accept I am a crazy cat lady! They are gorgeous, fluffy and cuddly. I just cant flaw them. My ideal husband would be a crazy cat ladyman but hey that's no biggie.
Don't be embarrassed to act like a fool in public with me. Don't be embarrassed when I cry through a movie. I am weird and will sit there and sob at the lamest part of a movie, feel free to cry with me. Haha. I am weird,  you will like it! Haha.
Speak your mind, if you don't like something, instead of getting angry, lets sort it out.
Remind me you aren't going to run away when times get hard.
Lets go away for the weekend or night, with no technology, play games and just chat.
Try and teach me something new, like snowboarding or ice skating. Even if I suck, suck with me. If I am cold, share your jacket with me. Ask me to be your plus one to weddings and events.
Surprise me with little things. Even if you just pick a flower out the garden, or bring me a coffee. It's the simple things in life. Listen to music with me, don't be afraid to sing along at the top of your lungs when we are in the car or even in public.
Just know that I am a geek and love watching Iron Man and other Marvel movies. It will not annoy you when I mouth the whole movie word for word, on my favorite movies.
Just know that when I watch some things or listen to some songs it makes me sooky and I just sit and sob or feel sorry for myself, call me a wanker and lets get on with it! There isn't anything wrong with me I just get so into the video or lyrics, and feel like I am living it, as I have said I am weird.
I will listen to some songs and sit there and smile like an idiot, remembering good times.
If I don't like someone, it doesn't mean you have to hate them, depending on who it is, it would probably be a good choice if you did! Haha. You should probably know that me and Kat come as a package deal, so we will be doing double dates, and games nights.
Don't say no when I want to play singstar, I can't sing but I love it, and it is hilarious.
Please don't say anything about me going drinking, even if I go out with my guy friends, I will always come back to you. You are the one I want, not them. Don't forget that!

Finally, Make me feel loved. I want to be doing something and when I look up I want you to be staring at me with a smile on your face. I am a creep so you know I will do that to you! When I walk down that isle, I hope the look on your face will say 'That's the most beautiful girl in the world and she's mine'.

I am old school. I prefer to stay in and play board games other than going to a fancy restaurant.


Your future wife

Sunday, 29 March 2015

It's been a while...

So it's been a while since I wrote on here, I have just been so busy with my family.
I am having an amazing time in Australia. I have caught up with some old friends, chilled with the family, made some new friends and spent my beautiful nephew's 4th birthday with him.
I went to poker on Thursday night! First time playing poker and I didn't do too bad. I didn't win but hey, it's not about winning haha. I was talking to my old friend Cara, and she asked me if I was going to stay here. I told her, that as much as I love it here, I think moving away was the best thing I have ever done! I am excited to go home. I love the person I have become over there!
On Saturday night we went out for Jess' birthday. We went to the club. Got really drunk. It was chaotic. Alex was crazy drunk. She laughed, cried and danced her ass off. She is going through a really bad time at the moment with Andrew. Don't get me wrong I love Andrew, but what he did to Alex is a dick move. No man should ever put his hands on a woman. Anyway, we ended up having a sleepover because she didn't want to go home alone. When I woke up she wasn't there, when I went looking for her she was passed out hugging the toilet. So safe to say she didn't feel 100% yesterday.
Last night I got a snapchat out of the blue from Greg. All it said was boobs? I cracked up! I miss him. Not that we are actually together or anything but he is just an awesome person. I know there is something there, but at the moment I am not sure what.

Today we are going out to the paintball range the boys made and going  riding. I can't wait. I can't even contain myself. There is something about it. Most likely the danger haha. The danger of being able to fall off at any time. Haha

Oh and the first Saturday I was here, we had major dramas! Nathan's boyfriend Steven got spiked at the club, he tried to kill himself it was crazy and the reason for doing so... Because Kaleb offered them a ride home! PATHETIC!

Well I am off to ride some bikes and probably get sunburnt!
Oh and I need to keep Alexis.



Wednesday, 18 March 2015

Fifty Shades of Greg

So yesterday, while I was sitting in the middle of a pile of washing, attempting to pack, I remembered that it was Wednesday. Wednesday means that it is quiz night at work. I called Nikkita and made sure we were still going. The answer was yes, I then forgot that I invited Jeffery from the Bog to come and be in our team. So we were pretty stoked that we had an extra person, and he was quite clever too. Then, Chris told us he was too hungover to be in our team. Well that wasn't going to end well. Anyways, when we got to work Jeffery was already there waiting for us, we would have been earlier but Kita had to try and roll her first joint. Haha it was classic. So we sat down at our table and Jeff asked if Greg was coming to quiz too. I thought he was working, when Jeff said that he had the day off and he messaged him. So along came Greg. He was really friendly. He hadn't even been drinking. So I was like well, shit is going to go down tonight. Let me tell you know. I wasn't wrong. Apparently Ants said to someone that last time we were drinking there together we fucked on the bar. When we questioned him about it he sooked out and was like nah that wasn't me. So we went along with it. Every time we looked at each other you could tell we were both thinking the same thing. I was talking to him and all of a sudden he was like right, I need to fuck you on this bar right now! Get up! Well this set me off. I laughed so hard, I almost pee'd myself. That would have been awkward. Then Mischael came in to say bye to me. I didn't actually think he would gave. I text him last night and said come catch up before I go, he was like CBK which usually means nah man, I would rather do anything else. But he actually came. We all played random drinking games. I can remember talking to everyone. Like the regulars and Tom the band guy and some randoms too. I felt popular haha.
Anyway me and Kita decided we should go downstairs out the back and get high... why the fuck not? YOLO... By the time I got back upstairs, Mischael was gone, no goodbye or anything. I tried to call him and he declined my call twice! I was like sweet as. Suck a dick then.
We decided to go to town, probably not the smartest idea considering it was now 2am and I still hadn't packed a thing. So we go to the Craic. have a drink there and then Jeff got real drunk fell on to someones table and almost got into a fight. So Greg's like you come with me and Jeff you go with Kita and we will go to Pop. We didn't even get half way down the stairs and Jeff decides to fall down the rest. So we get down there and ordered some drinks. Greg went to go outside for a smoke, he asked me to go with him. I was like sweet as, I thought he didn't want to sit outside by himself. As soon as we got outside, he grabbed me by the waist and pulled me in, gave me a kiss on the cheek and told me we should hang out more. I was like sweet as, I don't have a problem with that. So we sat outside for a bit before everyone else came out. we just sat on the couches outside, he sat there with his arm around me and I just kinda snuggled in. It was cute, it felt so right. Then when we went inside he did the whole surprise in the toilets again. This time I thought why the hell not? It's my last day for like a month. It would be a good going away present. Totally was. When it was time to leave, we walked up the stairs, it was raining, but we just stopped at the top of the stairs. He just started kissing me. When Antony and Gary walked up the stairs I got a bit freaked so I pulled away. He grabbed my head and just kept kissing me. I was like okay this won't be awkward next time I go into work. Antony was like okay guys come on now, the guys want to close up. So we left I started to head to the taxi stand so I could go home. I gave everyone a hug and went to cross the road, then all of a sudden Greg put his hands around me and was like you should just stay at mine? I said no because I had to go to pack, and this time I had 3 hours before I needed to leave for the airport. He was like atleast let me walk you to the taxi. So I did. He then grabbed my hand and pulled me into the alley, wasn't a creepy alley so it wasn't that bad. He pushed me up against the wall, in the pouring rain, grabbed my arms, so hard that I have a bruise and just kissed the shit out of me. He was really passionate. It was so hot. I didn't want to leave him. Once the little 50 shades moment was over, we walked to where the taxi was and he grabbed my phone. He went into my pictures. He changed my screensavers. the lock screen is a picture of him, kita and gary, when I asked why he saved that one he was like, so if any guys look at your phone you can say, thats my boyfriend, best friend and her boyfriend. I was like that is the cutest. Then he said unlock it, so I did and it was the first selfie we took together. It was so cute. He then opened the cab door for me gave me a little pash and said see ya when ya get back. When I got home I got a snapchat from him saying he missed me already haha I was like creeper. haha. I got home and tried to pack, pretty sure I forgot to pack underwear and I have no idea what I packed. So it will be a little surprise when I get to Australia. I am now sitting at Christchurch airport trying my hardest to stay awake.

Till Later


Tuesday, 10 March 2015


Today was probably one of the most embarrassing days of my life!
I went into work to get my scarf that I left there from Saturday. As soon as I got in Jarrod was like Oh good old Danii. Not thinking anything about it, until he was like so you on Saturday... I was like bluff it out Danii.. But nope I am awkward... What are you talking about Jarrod? You know what I am talking about... So that made me blush, and to make it worse Antony knew. I was sitting at the end of the bar with Jaz, Jarrod's Girlfriend. We decided to do the quiz, Our quiz name was Jaz and Danii... Until Antony changed it to Danii and Greg. Which was awkward enough, Then Greg walked in, Nikkita at the top of her lungs was like Danii look who's here, and Jarrod did his awkward cough and was like well this isn't awkward... He heard everything, I couldn't even look him in the eye. It was embarrassing. He didn't give anything away though. When he left, I messaged him and asked him what he had said to Jarrod, because according to Jarrod he told him everything! he was like no idea, not even sure myself. I was like he said he was talking to you this morning and you told him everything. He replied with nah kiddo! Who the fuck calls a chick Kiddo, he's only fucking 23. I was like well thats awkward how does he know anything? He was like there's nothing to know! I know I am lame, but I am pretty sure there is something to know! Do you know how shit that made me feel??
Then one of the questions of the quiz didn't work so Ant asked what colour his undies were. Ant was like ( into the mic) No Danii we aren't all like you and loose ours downstairs. AWKWARD!

So on the way home, I felt like I was ruined, I felt like I was just some lame chick on the side. When I was at work after I got Gregs message I didnt know where to look, I didn't know what to do, was I supposed to laugh it off? So on saturday, if I go out and he's there, what do I do, do I even talk to him? I suck with guys!!! Anywways, driving home I had some sad music on and singing it at the top of my lungs. Almost had tears streaming down my face. All over some guy, who I thought was cooler than that. Why am I so God Damn Laame!! Next week things are going to change. I am going to become a completley different person. Someone who I wouldn't recognize. I am going to become a heartless bitch, that doesn't trust guys at all. I am going to walk into the pub and if he's there, not even going to say hi. If he says hi, IGNORED! It will happen. I am sick of getting my hopes up and them stomped back down. The only guy's I need inn my life are the ones who make alcohol.


Monday, 9 March 2015

Love me like you do...

So today, while I was driving around, Ellie Goulding's song Love me like you do came on. I am not even kidding, all I could think about was Greg.I have no idea why, I got butterflies in my stomach and it felt like my heart was skipping a beat. All I wanted to do was dance and scream at the top of my lungs. I felt alive! Again, no idea why! I am pretty sure he is a jerk.

Ohh and I think I am addicted to tinder. Haha. Oh and I liked greg on there but never got anything back. So I am hoping he hasn't been on, or he hasn't got to me yet... Doubt it though. Pretty sure he left swiped me! Lol.

Think I am going to go to the library tonight so I can get some study done. I don't have much time before I go away!! 9 DAYS!


Why do I fall so fast?

So at about 5.30pm tonight Nikkita and I decided it would be a good idea to go to the quiz night at the Bog. Because we find fun in it, and so I could have a little perve on Greg.

Hoping it wouldn't be awkward when we seen each other face to face, I went in and ordered our first drinks. Me being awkward, as per usual, and not making eye contact or anything. Even though he wasn't serving me. As the night went on, I went up to the bar for another Vodka. This time the same guy served me, but Greg was in the bar, when he seen me, he said hi, and all I could come out with was sup? Who the fuck does that?? That's right... ME! As we got further into the night, with a full bar of people, I squeezed my way up to get a drink, this time Greg served me. He charged me staff price, which was good because none of the other cunts were. When he handed me the drinks he was like there you go my lady. Which made me smile a bit. But little did I know, This was as good as my night was going to get. After loosing quiz to a group that left half way through, and after everyone had started to leave, some pretty blonde chick stood at the table that Greg was clearing talking to him. I thought yeah, that's cool. You know, he works at a pub, he has to be friendly to everyone. He then went to get his jacket, and the proceeded to go outside with her, I was like sweet as, probably a mate. Then as they were walking down the hallway he grabs her from behind and I am pretty sure squeezes her ass a bit too. This made me feel like a complete wanker. Like, he was drunk on the weekend, why would I think it was anything? Why, if he has a girlfriend, would he still message me and snapchat me and why would have he tried so hard on saturday night to get me?

While I was washing my hands, even though I was fuming, was I wrong to hope that the girls room door would open and it would be him? Was I wrong to hope he would pick up from where he left off on saturday? Things obviously weren't that awkward between us, or he wouldn't have even looked me in the eyes. So I thought it would still be possible... I always get my hopes up!

While we were having a drink Nikkita made me download tinder. She thought it would be hilarious. Now I am sitting up looking through tinder to see whats out there. Messaging her every couple of minutes asking her how I work it, Just like a nana with a new phone.... This shall be interesting.

Well I hope all this was just a dream and it would be funny to see if Greg messages me again! Somewhere inside of me I hope he does, just because I thought there was something! Maybe even a good friendship... Only time will tell!


Saturday, 7 March 2015

What even...

So now reading last nights post with a cheeky grin on my face!! It was a fabulous night!

Although for anyone who reads it will think all I did all night was be a tramp hooking up with a guy I kind of have a thing for! That wasn't all that happened. That must have just been the only thing going through my drunken brain at 5am this morning.

So I will recap everything about the night that I can remember,

First things first, I went to work for a drink, expecting to meet Mischael there. Sitting at the bar by myself, looking like a complete loser, I ask the new girl Becky for a STRONG vodka. While I was sipping on my beautifully made vodka soda lime, I heard a voice from the other end of the bar saying 'drinking again are we, do you ever go home?' Not really taking any notice I looked over, and there sitting with his flatmate was Greg. So starting to feel a little bit better about my night I moved to the other end of the bar where they were sitting, I joined them. After about five minutes Greg asked me what my favorite colour was, while I answered with yellow, he shouted out to Becky that we needed 3 yellow shots. She brang over vanilla galliano and tequila, being so early in the night I decided it was way too early for Tequila I made her sneakily leave the tequila out so I ended up having a shot of vanilla galliano while the two boys had a mixture. After singing a couple of songs and sitting outside in the freezing cold for a bit, I found myself downstairs near the basement with Greg, to be honest I thought it was just a joke, we were joking about going downstairs for a quickie, thinking its a joke I just thought I would play along.... I must say, he was very passionate, it felt like it was a movie scene, e had one hand on my waist, while he pulled me in he used his other hand to gently scrunch my hair and pull my face towards his, he looked into my eyes for a bit before he went in for the kiss. It was so cute. Me being as awkward as I am, was thinking the whole time, what the hell do I do with my hands, at this stage I started to slightly freak out. I managed to run one hand down into his back pocket, and the other one up to the back of his head. After this, we went upstairs and ad a couple more to drink.
Nikkita finally finished work, and Greg's flatmate decided to eave, which is good, he's a bit weird.
We had a couple of drinks with Nikkita and then somehow I ended up in the guys bathroom, don't know how I got there though haha. We went to start hooking up and then some guy walked in... AWKWARD! We went back to the bar, I decided I needed to pee. I went to the toilet, while I was drying my hands the bathroom door opens, thinking it was just some other chick needing to pee, I look over and nope, it was Greg. This is where the 50 shades came in... sorta, he pushed my back up to the wall, and grabbed my hands as our fingers locked together, he pushed them up above my head so I couldn't move them, he then kissed me softly from my lips, down my neck to my boobs, and back up again, I don't know how it was possible, but it felt like every second, we were getting closer and closer, I thought we were as close as we could get when he had me pinned up against the wall. After this, I left the bathroom first, to make it not look too suspicious, dumb move because everyone seen Greg come in to the girls bathroom. With the couple of spare minutes I had before he came back I quickly caught Nikkita up on what had just happened, we decided it was time to go in to town. After what thought to be an hour long walk, we ended up at the Ra Bar, while Greg was outside smoking, Nikkita and I were inside dancing our asses off. It was really cool, all three of us danced for what felt like for hours we ended up leaving, and trying to finding another open club, we ended up at Carousel, the lamest club in town! there were like ten people there! Although, it was 3am. While we were waiting at the bar for a drink, he came up behind me, nibbled on my ear, gave me a kiss on the neck and then he hugged me tight, so tight that I could feel his 'little friend' which was kinda hot! We sat down and started having our drinks, when he grabbed me by the hand, leading me to the bathrooms, leaving Nikkita awkwardly with two random guys! I turned around for like 2 seconds to lock the door, he had already started on my neck, which is why I had to check myself to see if I had any hickies this morning! haha, By the time I turned around he had his dick out! Not bad but shit he's quick! Didn't even hear him unzip his pants!
We were in there for what I thought was like two minutes, but Nikkita let me know it was more like ten! So may have blanked out somewhere, but I honestly have no idea! When the club shut we walked to Mc Donalds, so Nikkita could get her flatmate something to eat! While we were waiting in line, and waiting for her to get her meal, he was very cuddly and pretty much all over me. I didn't hate it! When we went to leave I went to catch a taxi home, where Greg said, just come back to mine. But I knew that wouldn't be a good idea, as I had to beat the sunrise home, and I only just did that as it is, If I had stayed there I wouldn't have been getting home til about now, 14 hours later!

When I got home to put my phone, which had been flat all night, on charge, My phone just went off. There were about 15 messages from him, and I was getting phone calls and everything. I fell asleep, and when I woke up there were messages and missed calls galore! It was hilarious. I later got a message from Nikkita asking if he showed up at mine. When I replied and said, no he never showed up and asked her why she thought that he was, she replied with... He said he was going to come and find you so you's could cuddle on the couch and watch movies, and that he could teach me how to play playstation. Thought that was a bit cute.

He messaged me this morning and said he hope I don't think he's a crazy stalker and asked me how I was feeling.

All in all it was a fantastic night, but lets hope next time, we do end up staying over.

I feel like I should be writing a dirty novel, and I am feeling like a bit of a tramp!


screwed up and spat out

So last night, I was stood up! I was looking so forward to going out with Mischael, and he let me down no text or nothing! Then tonight I messaged him and told him I would be at work for a couple of drinks if he was keen... no reply, no surprise!
When I was there I seen Greg, 6 hours later and we just said goodbye! It was such a good night! Even though I got stood up by someone I thought was a close friend, I found another one! 

I think he might possibly have feelings for me too. He took me downstairs at work and went to hook up with me, we also hooked up in the Men's toilets, and then he went all 50 shades of grey with me in the girl's toilets, it was hot! Then we went into the octagon, where I met him in the bathrooms of Carousel where  by the time I got into the bathrooms he had his dick out! Must say it turned me on a bit, but like always I let the good things get away! And I chickened out and didn't screw him, which now I am kinda regretting. 

He is now trying to call me, but  I can't let him come to my parents house! awkward!!! 
Kat what do I do? xx


Thursday, 5 March 2015

Friday Night Antics!

So tonight, I think I might actually be going out. Not with the guys from work but with Mischael! This would be the first time in like 5 months that we have been out. He moved to Queenstown, so I never really get to see him anymore. I also think he became a bit distant when Nathan came over for Bex' 30th, because we were so close. No need to worry Mischael... Nathan is Gay!! Not even kidding. I wasn't allowed to say anything, because it was his secret not mine. But lets hope me messages me to say what time he is going out and where we are meeting. Will probably be work, for the fact it's cheaper and we know everything.

Let's just say I am pretty excited... The only thing I am not looking forward to, is if his friend Hannah comes, some people like her, but she isn't really a fan of mine! I am not sure why though, I haven't done anything to her, that I know of.

Tomorrow, will hopefully be my last day at the Robbie. Mixed emotions, but hey, you gotta do what you gotta do.

I am totally in love with Ellie Goulding's song Love me like you do. It makes me feel all tingly, butterflies in my stomach and a smile on my face.

Until tomorrow,


Fox Force Five

So last night I went to the quiz night! It was awesome! Our team name was Fox Force Five! We came 4th! Not too bad considering last time KatDan quizzed we cam last! hahaha
I was in the team with Nikkita and a couple of her mates! They were really cool, and smart.
To celebrate not coming last, we stayed behind and had a few drinks. It was a really good night!
School tomorrow, I missed my class today because I was irresponsible and drank a bit too much but I was being responsible because I thought I was too intoxicated to drive.

Only realised today that I have exactly 2 weeks until I go to Australia. I can't wait, but at the same time I am stressing out! I have to complete every single assignment for this term before I go because I am away for so long! so while everyone gets 8 weeks to start and finish their assignments I get two! Hope all goes well. I need to pass this!

Whilst in Australia I will be staying with Kat and Mama, I can't wait. Hopefully there is a Bingo on the night I am there so we can go win some moolah! I never win, but you gotta be in it to win it.

Kat if you are reading this... research some Bingos!! haha it would be even better if they  had Bingo with beverages. xx


Tuesday, 3 March 2015

Things can only get better

After I got yesterday's drama off my chest, I became a lot calmer and instantly happier... I don't know if it's because Kat calmed me down, or I could just say what ever I wanted to until my brain had no more words in it, or simply because an unexpected message could just brighten your day... or night.

So I just want to say thank you!

Thank you Kat, for listening to my dramas for hours and hours without telling me to shut the fuck up. Lol. Thank you for being my best friend and thank you for leaving everything and everyone you have in Australia, just to start an adventure with me. I promise to you, we will have the time of our lives. And I hope you find your public transport hottie!!

Thank you to my brain, for letting me bottle up all my problems and store them in you! Thank you for letting me hide the things I am too scared to say!

And finally, Thank you Greg! For staying up til 3am talking to me, out of the blue and pretty much about nothing, I think it was just what I needed to make my night that much better than it was.

Today I got a parking ticket! I don't even mind! I am off to get ready for my Quiz Night! It will be fun... I hope, but definatley not as fun as our KatDan sessions! Speaking of KatDan sessions, We should totally get high and do the quiz Kat! haha!


This and that!

So I went to work today, ready to quit. I was talking to Kat this morning, and she let me know how shit I am treated there and how close me and Jarrod used to be as friends, and now it feels like every time he talks to me he is just being a total wanker. I miss the old Jarrod! The one that used to ring up just to see what I was doing, and to tell me he spent all night at work watching home and away and shortland street with the locals because it was so quiet. Jarrod, if you ever read this, which I am hoping you wont, but if you ever do! Please change back to the old Jarrod. Please don't think I hate you in any way, shape or form, or that I am being the wanker, because I'm not, It just hurts me to think you aren't there for me anymore.
Anywho! I never ended up talking to him because he was a little bit preoccupied. So I sent him a message, and I never quit. In this message I told him that I basically don't want to come back until I get back from Australia. Honestly, I am not sure what I want to do at all. like most of me wants to quit because I hate going to work feeling disrespected and like I am only there because they have no one else. We should treat each other like family, like what we are, what we were. I used to love going to work to see everyone, and to catch up with all the news, I used to like going in an hour early just to chill out with everyone, I used to like staying behind and having a beer after work, and now I can't wait to see the door close at the end of my shift. Now I feel like I am just a number, I don't even feel human.
The other part of me still loves my job, I love the people I work with, we are family and even families have their fair shares  of ups and downs. I am just so stuck with what to do.
I can almost guarantee I will get an abusive phone call tomorrow morning asking why I let Antony take the key home, I didn't let him, he took it, without me knowing. But I bet you I will still get into shit for it.

Tonight once we finished work Antony, Nikkita and I went over to The Bog for a drink, I only had a Lemon Lime and Bitters because I had to drive, so I missed out on a lovely ice cold beer. It was cool. Nikkita and I have decided we will go to quiz night tomorrow... that will be interesting, but I can tell you right now that it would not be as fun as it was when KatDan were quizzing it. But it should be an interesting night. I will make sure I update you tomorrow.

While we were over at The Bog, I ran into Greg. If you don't remember who Greg is, he is the guy that took over my bar on Sunday night and made me shots and drinks because it looked like I was stressed to the max! We got really, really drunk and had a really good night. Anyway, I ran in to him and we have been messaging each other all night, I am thinking I am starting to get a little school girls crush on him.I don't know why though. Don't get me wrong, he is pretty cute, and a lovely person I just don't know why. Is it because I feel lonely? I haven't got a clue... I don't feel lonely, is that why? I am so confused. I don't know if it is a good thing or a bad thing. It just seems these days, as soon as I get my hopes up, something finds it's way to let me down.
I have two perfect examples,
Example one,
Mischael! We got on so well, we wouldn't go an hour without talking to each other, I have no idea what happened, but I never see him anymore, and I hardly hear from him at all. everyone thought we were, or would get together, he used to come all the way into town while I was at work just to see m,e, and just to see how my day was going, now I go weeks without him speaking to me and when I message it would be a shock for me to get a reply from him. I miss him so much! He was the reason I went out, and became a bit more social. He was my first new friend here, he showed me it's fun to go out get really drunk and watch the same episode of breaking bad 100 times before we got sick of it.

Example two,
Nathan! He promised me he would come down to Adelaide and pick me up when I go over in a couple of weeks. He is my best friend, and when he promised me, I thought he meant it. I was so excited for him to come and get me, and we were supposed to have the whole weekend in Adelaide before we went back to Roxby. If you know what we were like, we were basically inseperable. Wherever I was, he was. Wherever he was, I was. That's just the way it was. Then he told my little brother a week ago, that he wasn't coming to get me and waited until today to tell me. What would have happened if I had decided to get a hotel? What would have happened if I had made plans for us to go places and do cool things? It just feels like I am putting a whole lot of effort into something he doesn't even care about anymore. It's just little things like that, that hurt me alot. It affects me. I hate how it does, but I can't help it. Like it absolutley broke my heart when he wrote in my 21st book andd all he wrote was Hi <3 Tui I actually cried.

I just get to the point in thinking what is the use of trying? It all seems to blow up in my face one way or another. I really hate being in these kinds of moods. All I want to do now is watch a sad movie like Charlie St Cloud or Remember Me, even though it will make me cry like a baby and feel even worse about myself. When I should be watching something I love that makes me laugh so hard like Just Go With It.

So while I was styping this feeling sad, lonley and depressed I got a message from Greg, It made me smile, it was a stupid little message, didn't mean much, but it feels really nice having someone message you first for a change.

Current mood -- Tingly now!

Might go watch Just Go With It.



Monday, 2 March 2015


I am so confused! I need to grow up and move up in my career. I want to quit my job at The Robbie Burns Pub. Ever since my boss Vic left, I feel as if it's gone downhill. They don't treat me like they should. They are the most lazy people I have ever worked with. On Sunday I had to work with the 2 new girls we have. Nikkita is awesome, but we got another one on Sunday. Her name is Becky and apparently she was Miss Otago. So as you could probably tell, Jarrod hired her for the looks. She is the most lazy and annoying person I have ever worked with... and I have worked with Tania. haha
Anyways, She is there for probably five minutes and ask when she finishes. Then, she was asked to do some fries, she didn't do it until I asked her again 15 minutes later! She didn't want to get her hands dirty. So that was stressful enough, Then Antony decided to come in and be nothing but a cockhead! Trying to tell me to change the music as if he ran the place. Because him and the owners son doesn't like the music I was playing. Well let me tell you something... It was better than the bullshit that you wanted me to play. I usually just give in and let him choose. But I thought, NO! That is why I get treated like shit! Because I let them. I took a stand and didn't change it! He then went home in a sooky, but WHO GIVES A SHIT!

As the night got later and everyone started to leave, me, Nikkita and Greg, he's from The Bog, decided  it would be a nice night to get wasted! We got so very drunk, to the point where Nikkita was playing the drums and Greg and I were trying to waltz and pole dance, I feel sorry for anyone who tries to watch the security footage. I was expecting to be yelled at by Jarrod for something, but I have the upper hand. He was storing weed at work in the phone box, as on Friday he smoked weed with some of the band members. So I think I am pretty safe.

I really love working there, but I hate how I get treated. I don't know what to do! What if I quit and can't find another job that is as good, or as fun, or I don't get as much freedom, or discount haha.
I feel as if I am stuck between a rock and a hard place... If someone could please tell me how to live my life... that would be great. I was thinking maybe I should find a job before I quit, but no one will hire me knowing I am going away for a month in two weeks..

KAT! I know you are probably the only one reading this so tell me what to do! haha


Sunday, 22 February 2015

You know what pisses me off?
It pisses my off when I get yelled at for not calling or texting someone, when I did! Then I text to see when I work next, and don't get a text back. Maybe that is why I have to ask someone else you cockhead! Why should I have to call or message when he doesn't bother to message back or answer the phone? You are supposed to be my boss, not someone who thinks he is bulletproof and if he doesn't like the question or just feels like being a wanker he doesn't answer. What kind of boss does that? It is even worse because there is only me and him that are managers, so I have no one else to call on or no one to go higher up for help that I might need. I am sick for a couple of days, but that makes me the worse person! I could come and throw up all over the bar, get a little vomit in someones drink, give it to the other people I work with so there is even less of us to work? Oh that wouldn't bother you, because that means you don't have to work. As long as you only work the days you have to that's fine. Ever heard of taking one for the team? Yeah, That's what I do for you pretty much every time we work together. When you need to do something, or take your girlfriend somewhere because she is too young to drive. Even though you should be working. I come in two hours early for my shift, feeling like crap just so you can go get KFC for dinner. Well you can kiss that goodbye. I will never do anything for you that I don't have to now! I won't be covering your shifts, I won't be coming in early, I won't run and buy you cigarettes when you are running late, I won't be hiding things from the owners that you were not supposed to buy. I am taking a stand. You can see how good I was to you, and regret it. You can see how much of a bitch I can be!
You don't message me back about if I work tomorrow or not, I won't show up!
Peace out homie!

D x

Friday, 20 February 2015

When one door closes, another one opens!

"When one door closes, another opens"

I don't get how this quote is true. It might just be because I am having a bad week, but I just don't get it.
For example; One of the most amazing bosses I have ever had got fired, one of the guys who I thought were one of my close mates took over from him. But he has just turned in to a major douche! He is just rude! It makes me feel as if I don't want to work there anymore. Like today, a real cool chick came and handed in her resume, and people here put photos of themselves on their resume so that the managers can remember who that person was, which is handy, especially in bar work as you are always getting new resumes in. But he takes a look at her photo and says that she is too fat to work there and that we don't have any shirts big enough for her, and that he could get her a tarp and make her wear that. I think that is nothing but cruel. Pure bullying! People kill themselves for things like that. Fortunately, she didn't hear what he said, but still that's horrible. When is the other door going to open? How can we get something better, when I feel like we are going downhill? I used to love going to work, but now, I dread going to work, and being made feel like shit. I shouldn't have to do that! I shouldn't have to work my ass off with bully's, for minimum wage, well what feels like minimum wage, just to make ends meet. I was thinking, they need me more than I need them. There is only myself and Jarrod with managers certificates. If I left, they would be in the shit! But I can't really do anything about it until I get back from Australia, as I need to get a new job but no one will hire me knowing I am away for a month so I will have to wait until I get back.

Another example for this quote; I got told on Thursday that my cousin is very unwell. We knew she was unwell, but she was looking so well lately and now she is going downhill fast! We were told that the doctors said that if she doesn't keep up with the chemo, she only has about 2 weeks to live! What would be the open door for this? I can not possibly imagine what good thing would come out of such a horrible thing! She will never get to see her kids get old, she will never see their kids, and she will never be there for their weddings, she won't be able to see her youngest finish school, or start university. I am finding it really hard to find the positive. She won't be there for birthdays, Christmases, or even family holidays. Her kids can't just pop around and see their mum when they want some advice. The kids won't have their mum, Her husband wont have his wife, we wont have our cousin and her parents wont have their daughter. I couldn't imagine losing my mum. I don't know what I would do. It's hard enough we know we are going to lose our cousin, I couldn't even imagine what her husband and kids are going through. Life is cruel.

On a positive note though, Mum is going crazy trying to get ready for when Kat gets home. She is sorting her room, and she went crazy at the shop today! she even brought her a money box! I can feel she will be the favorite haha. So I better use the days that I am the only child very wisely.


Thursday, 19 February 2015

It's Been A While.

Well! What was supposed to be the best O-Week of my life, turned out to be something not so great.

Monday; I went into Polytech for my first day, to find out that I wasn't supposed to be there. Then I turns out I was supposed to be there. But I never ended up going because of the lack of communication at the school.

I then headed off to work, which was fine. Was closed up by 8:30pm. Then my friend Antony from work messaged to see if I was keen to have a beer in the Octagon (Main part of town where all the bars are.) Which sounded cool, and with it being O-week I thought why not, I never go out. About 8 hours later after being to several bars, a couple of house/ street party's and sitting on the roof of Antony's apartment I stumbled home. I am pretty sure I fell asleep in the Taxi on the way home. Other than that it was a good night.

Tuesday; I woke up fine, went to drop mum off at work at 12pm and realised my keys were in my handbag, I left my handbag at Antony's. So dad had to come and get her. I was fine until 2pm and threw up everywhere. It was horrible, I realised that I got Gastro. I had to call in sick to work, which was even worse. All I could do was sleep.

Wednesday; Still feeling queasy as, I did my daily jobs and then got a phone call to say that Aurora needed picked up early from school as she has chicken pox. Poor little sausage. She had Gastro too. She wasn't having a good week either.

I realised that I didn't have chicken pox when I was younger. We thought that the Gastro was it, but t was the beginning of chicken pox. Turns out I now have them too.

Thursday; I went to work at 6pm because that was when I thought I started, Still feeling like crap, once I got there I realised that I didn't start til 8pm. Then Jarrod and Antony were laughing at me calling me Poxy, and telling me that I wouldn't be able to go on my holiday because they would put me in quarantine for 60 days. So not funny! I went home at 11:30pm

Today, I was awoken by Aurora telling me that breakfast was ready. She has been staying here while she has the chicken pox. I cleaned Chester's cage out, and made a beautiful Caesar Salad for dinner, gave Aurora a bath and now she is in bed while I am upstairs writing this and watching John Tucker Must Die. I love this movie. Not a bad way to end the week.

Off to work tomorrow and Sunday, Then off to school for my First real day on Monday.

Have a good weekend my loves!


Sunday, 1 February 2015

Great Times With Great People!

So today I went to church! For the first time in my life, I went to church.
I am so proud of myself. I absolutely LOVED it! It is such an amazing environment to be in. I was treated like family by a room full of people I didn't know. They are now my family too. My cousins Brad and Jackie go there, Usually Brad sings. Today was his day off. But honestly, it was the most amazing thing I have ever done. I will totally be going back there next week, and every week after that.

Tonight none of us could decide what to have for dinner, so we rang Bex and decided to have a potluck dinner party, Everyone had to make a dish. We did a masterchef kind of thing and we had two hours to cook thee meal. And after dinner we scored each dish, it was fun. I decided to make Bang bang chicken salad. It was amazing, Mum made a chilli chicken pasta dish, Dad made a lamb, chilli and lime stir fry, Bex made kumara salad, and nana decided she would buy a hot chicken and coleslaw. So Nana was automatically disqualified for the lack of effort put in. I actually won the game. This was quite unusual because I thought it was an odd dish to win, it was beautiful though. It was a great dinner party, and the kids loved it.
After dinner me, mum and Bex went to Bex new friend, Stacey's house, she is a Tupperware rep and had a whole lot of stuff for us to look at. I got a couple of lunch containers and a new drink bottle that will hopefully be here before I start school.

I am hoping that my course related costs will be in my account when I wake up so I can get shopping and fully ready for school to start. I am super excited and probably wont be able to sleep tonight. You are supposed to get it 14 days before you start, and tomorrow is 14 days away. EXCITING!


Saturday, 31 January 2015

Time To Try New Things!

So tomorrow is my day off. I NEVER get Sundays off! It is super unusual! Great though!

So I have decided to go to Church, not only because the song 'Take me to church' is awesome, but because it is something I have always wanted to do but from what I remember, I never have. My niece Aurora wants to go too. So I think it would be a good bonding activity.
If we don't like it we could always go to Maccas instead. 

I am thinking of going to Nations Church. I always drive past there and it looks lovely. Not only that my cousins go there. My cousin Brad sings there quite a bit, so it should be good.

Tonight, instead of going to Jesse (My Cousin) 21st party, I have decided to stay home and have an early one. I am turning into a nana. Hopefully that will change when Kat gets here. 


Wednesday, 28 January 2015

I'M IN!!

So last year I applied for a course at Otago Polytechnic. (Sort of a cross between university and tafe). I received a letter a while ago saying that I was not accepted as the class I wanted to be in was full, but I was allowed to be on the wait list. Well on Tuesday I got a phone call saying that someone pulled out and I have a chance to be in. I had an interview today, well, what I thought was an interview, but I actually got in. It was a pre-orientation. It was amazing. It is classed as full time study, but I only have classes on Thursdays and Fridays 9am-5pm. I thought that was great. I could imagine it will be a hard course, but it would totally be worth it in the end. This means, because it is only two days a week, and only until 5pm at the latest, I can still work as per usual, and I will get plenty of time to spend with my best friend, Kat. It will be amazing. I am studying a national certificate in Human Services, majoring in Disability Support. Another cool thing, is that my sister Bex, is also studying this year. I found out today that she will be in the same block as me, and we will be having orientation together, and we have course on the same days, Kat was saying yesterday that she is keen to study something too. It would be awesome if she could get into a course that she wanted over here, then we could live the real scarfie life. Nana Rua was fantastic today. When she found out I was accepted she was very proud, she took me to warehouse stationary and let me spend $50. She is so lovely.

Anyways, just thought I would let you all know how proud I am of myself. :)


Sunday, 25 January 2015

Catch up time

So these are the pictures of my aunty's birthday cake that I made her. It was delicious! everybody loved it! 

Last night we went to Filadelfios for dinner. It is an american style Pizza/ Pasta Bar! It was delicious. I got the spaghetti puttnesca. It was fantastic! 

Today I looked after my nieces, and picked Bella up from kindy! It was her first day back from the Christmas holidays. She loved it! I made a birthday cake this afternoon as it is one of my best friends in New Zealand birthday. I work with him. He is great! I know he will enjoy the cake.

Tomorrow I am going to make play dough with Aurora, she gets a bit bored after so many weeks of school holidays. It will be great fun! I can't even remember the last time I made play dough! 

Friday, 23 January 2015

Life is sweet...

So Yesterday, I did a whole lot of nothing. It was FANTASTIC! I took Allegra to the shop to change her birthday present! She chose a Doc McStuffins microphone! It is great! Then we went to the Beach and the park and had some lunch and got an ice block. What a great day. Today, I went to my sisters as soon as I woke up. We went to town and did some shopping. Then mum and dad came down and we are just about to have a barbeque for dinner. Dad and James are away fishing, Mum and the kids are watching Peppa Pig and Bex is outside starting the Barbeque up. Life is great.

 Raewyns cake turned out great! I will upload picture when I get home. (Not on my computer) We have had such beautiful weather.

If it is great tomorrow we might take the Jet Ski down to Henley for a blat for Raewyn's Birthday. Maybe take a Picnic.

I went up home to get Millie (My Dog) when I got home she wasn't there, which is unusual, as she never runs away. She obviously hear my brakes, as she ran down the street and into the car like a bat out of hell. She obviously decided it would be a good idea to go on an adventure. I will be sure to upload a picture of her too. She is kind of cute. But she is super hypo. I love her.

Well I am off to make a salad for dinner.


Wednesday, 21 January 2015

Time to do what I want!

For those who know me, you know I am a bit of a geeky nerd. I laughed so hard when I seen this picture! So I thought I would share it with you.

I have decided I would like to take up dancing! I would love to know how to waltz and Cha Cha! I would love to do Rock n Roll dancing. I think that will be something I take up in my spare time, in the near future. 

So my cake is almost finished and I am quite pleased with how it came out considering what it looked like last night. 
I am super excited for the next couple of weeks. I have my cousins 21st next week. It is a heaven and hell theme, which should be hilarious. The week after, we are going back to Kurow to get some more firewood, for the winter of course. and in seven weeks I am off to Australia. I can not wait. Not only do I get to see my family, I get to see my friends, and I get to bring my best friend Kat back. I am so excited. I am also super excited to see a really good friend named Enzo. He is great. He has just moved to Adelaide so I will have to catch up with him when I am down there.

Well I am off to put the finishing touches on the cake, and then watch a couple of episodes of Awkward. 


Whoops... (Part 2)

Soo.... lets just say my cake didn't really turn out the way I wanted it. It smells beautiful though! So I will have to see what I can do to fix it tomorrow.

I think it is time to lay in bed and watch some TV with my cats. If you didn't already know, I love cats! I have three and there is a stray that has adopted us over this Christmas break. He is a bit skittery, and doesn't really come inside, but I am working on him.

I am listening to Geronimo on the radio whilst I am typing this and I just can't stop smiling, I don't know why, it just reminds me of a happy song. Something that just instantly makes your mood ten times better. Have you a song like that?

Tomorrow is Allegra's second birthday so we have a big day ahead! I also have the lady from Avon coming around as I am going to start being a representative for it. But I think I might need to postpone her coming around so that I can spend the whole day with Allegra, I might see if Aurora would like a sleepover tomorrow night as well. She would love that!

Alright! I'm off


Tuesday, 20 January 2015


So my cake didn't turn out the way I wanted it to. The cake itself is fine, but my icing skills with my shaky hands and today, my shaky patience, I thought it would be a good idea to change the decoration. I am aiming for something like the picture below. I am going to finish it off once I finish writing this.
Speaking of whoops, I am constantly loosing my phone! I could have it, and two minutes later I couldn't tell you where it was. I even have a case that looks like a giant pineapple. It is awesome, but I still can't find it. I would probably misplace my head if it wasn't attached.

 Not the full thing, I just want to decorate it like the top cake. 


Trying to be Macgyver... TRYING

So today I am making cakes because I was too lazy yesterday.
Without a craft knife I have to try and Macgyver my way round a dancer silhouette so I can make the icing that same picture, kind of like a stencil. I am useless enough with scissors as it is, but I need to make the icing exactly the same, Last year I made her a lolly cake. I will upload pic. But this year I wanted to personalize it more because she is a fantastic Aunt and deserves a fantastic cake. I will let you know how the cutting goes when I cut it. Fingers crossed it turns out good.

Anyways, yesterday I caught up with my cousin Johnny. I was helping him pick something for his mum for her birthday, that did not turn out too well as we could not decide on what to get her. We just ended up going to Mc Donalds and having afternoon tea. It was great. We never really used to hang out while we were growing up because I was in Australia, and when I left he was a bit of a douche. But now he is an amazing young man that has a bright future ahead of him, even though he is a freak and can remember like everyones car number plate. That kid had a great memory. But yeah, it was cool. It's days like that I am thankful to have such an amazing family.

I am going to my friend Kiri's house at 3pm today to get my eyebrows done and help her with her business advertisements, I used to work with her at the bottle store I used to work at before I started at the pub. She is great.
 This is last years birthday cake.

Right I am off to take mum to work and then go make some cakes and get my eyebrows done (youch) 

Monday, 19 January 2015

I Got Style... Kinda!

The other day me, my parents and my aunty went to Kurow to see my uncle and chop some firewood for the winter. Kurow is such a beautiful place, it is nice and sunny and in the winter it is like a winter wonderland with beautiful scenery.
Kurow New Zealand 

Anyway, what I was actually going to say was when me and my aunty were in the cafe waiting for our coffees, she told me that her youngest son Nic (14) wanted me to take him shopping for clothes instead of his mum because I have better taste than him. I am not sure whether he wants me to come so none of his friends see him and his mum shopping, or if he actually does think I have some sort of style. I thought that was amazing. He is a lovely boy and he will go far some day soon. He is a fantastic sportsman. 

This morning my sister messaged me to see if I wanted to come to the supermarket with her and her three daughters to do the groceries. Of course I said yes. It was good fun, unlike the other times we go and it is stressful. I took Bella (3) my middle niece while my sister took Aurora (5) and Allegra (1). While we were going around the supermarket Bella decided it would be a great idea to let me know everything she wanted, when I replied with "Thats cool Bella" she replied with " I guess I could wait for my birthday." I thought it was priceless. 
Now I am sitting at home with Allegra while the other girls are out at a play date. When we were having lunch Allegra went over to Nana Rua's plate and ate half of her sandwich and all her crusts before she had a chance to eat it herself. Gorgeous. 

Later on today I will be making two birthday cakes. One for Allegra as it is her 2nd birthday on Thursday and one for Raewyn as it is her birthday on Sunday, but I have to work so I will give it to her earlier. I will be sure to upload photos when they are finished. 

I  am off to watch Coronation Street with Allegra and Nana Rua now. 


Lucky for some!

So today I found out that my dad won an hour worth of tattooing for free, and since he doesn't handle needles well, he is giving me the voucher. What an amazing gift! I have already planned what I want! I want something like the picture below but I want five little cupcakes. The cupcakes represent my passion towards baking and five of them because I want them to represent me and my four siblings.
Picture from pinterest
 Also, another thing to make me smile today was the fact that a young guy maybe in his early twenties was at the supermarket today. and I was not watching where I was going and bumped into him, he apologized even though it was my fault which was very sweet, and then when I was waiting in line to be served, this same man was infront of me and he let me go before him. It is the simple things like that that make ones day ten times better.

Anger is a horrible thing, and many people know that it is contagious. Have you ever been yelled at by someone?, a stranger, a teacher/ boss, a parent or a friend. When someone treats you like that it makes you feel that way and you end up taking it out on other people, whether you mean it or not. But I believe that a smile is contagious too. Have you ever seen the television show 'The Middle'? In one of the episodes Sue Heck does a project to see if smiling is contagious, Although it does not turn out for her, in real life it is! Smiling and laughing is the key to a happier you and a better life!

Seriously, how can this face not make you smile :)
Picture from: http://www.vebidoo.com/sue+ditullio 

Sunday, 18 January 2015

Happiness is the key!

These last couple of weeks, even months on the news have been filled with bad news!
You hardly ever see the good stuff. And like the news, we also forget to let the good things
outweigh the bad.
In this blog I will be letting the good outweigh the bad. Even on my darkest days I will find
that one thing that kept me going all day! That one thing that made me smile whether it was
something amazing like getting a bunch of flowers or being taken out to lunch to a simple
smile or walk along the beach. We need to start saying I LOVE more than I hate.
The way to a positive life is to have a positive heart and a positive mind.

I was  driving down the street the other day, windows down music up, singing at the top of my lungs. There is something about doing that that makes me feel so alive. I LOVE doing that! I LOVE how that makes me feel!

Yesterday while I was at work (Even though Sundays are my least favorite day to work) I had four customers come in off a cruise ship and have a beer and some lunch. I LOVE the little chats we had. I LOVE how they asked ME for advice on where to go, and what I LOVED more was they liked my advice. I suggested for them to go some place and they went.

Last week at work, I had a couple come in, They had just been on the Cadbury World Tour. A Chocolate Factory. When they were at work we had a great chat, about nothing too big either. But when they left the gave me a chocolate and said it was lovely to meet me. I LOVED that. It made my Day! It is the simple things like that, that make you feel happy! They didn't have to leave me anything, they didn't even have to say goodbye, but they did.

In eight weeks I am off to Australia to see my sister as she is having a baby! I am super excited, not just to go over, but to come back home! When I leave Australia I get to bring my BEST FRIEND back with me! We are going to start our own adventure, here in New Zealand, but that may not be where our adventure ends, We will  save up and then travel. All we know we might end up back in Australia, we could stay in New Zealand or, we could end up somewhere we never thought we would be like the Greek Islands! I am so excited for this.
I am usually a worrier, I would never go out of my comfort zone! If someone asked me to go away, even for a weekend with them, I would automatically think of all the bad things that could happen, and then I would pass on the offer. But not anymore. Life starts at the end of your comfort zone! I am starting my life today! and I am never going to look back!