Friday, 20 February 2015

When one door closes, another one opens!

"When one door closes, another opens"

I don't get how this quote is true. It might just be because I am having a bad week, but I just don't get it.
For example; One of the most amazing bosses I have ever had got fired, one of the guys who I thought were one of my close mates took over from him. But he has just turned in to a major douche! He is just rude! It makes me feel as if I don't want to work there anymore. Like today, a real cool chick came and handed in her resume, and people here put photos of themselves on their resume so that the managers can remember who that person was, which is handy, especially in bar work as you are always getting new resumes in. But he takes a look at her photo and says that she is too fat to work there and that we don't have any shirts big enough for her, and that he could get her a tarp and make her wear that. I think that is nothing but cruel. Pure bullying! People kill themselves for things like that. Fortunately, she didn't hear what he said, but still that's horrible. When is the other door going to open? How can we get something better, when I feel like we are going downhill? I used to love going to work, but now, I dread going to work, and being made feel like shit. I shouldn't have to do that! I shouldn't have to work my ass off with bully's, for minimum wage, well what feels like minimum wage, just to make ends meet. I was thinking, they need me more than I need them. There is only myself and Jarrod with managers certificates. If I left, they would be in the shit! But I can't really do anything about it until I get back from Australia, as I need to get a new job but no one will hire me knowing I am away for a month so I will have to wait until I get back.

Another example for this quote; I got told on Thursday that my cousin is very unwell. We knew she was unwell, but she was looking so well lately and now she is going downhill fast! We were told that the doctors said that if she doesn't keep up with the chemo, she only has about 2 weeks to live! What would be the open door for this? I can not possibly imagine what good thing would come out of such a horrible thing! She will never get to see her kids get old, she will never see their kids, and she will never be there for their weddings, she won't be able to see her youngest finish school, or start university. I am finding it really hard to find the positive. She won't be there for birthdays, Christmases, or even family holidays. Her kids can't just pop around and see their mum when they want some advice. The kids won't have their mum, Her husband wont have his wife, we wont have our cousin and her parents wont have their daughter. I couldn't imagine losing my mum. I don't know what I would do. It's hard enough we know we are going to lose our cousin, I couldn't even imagine what her husband and kids are going through. Life is cruel.

On a positive note though, Mum is going crazy trying to get ready for when Kat gets home. She is sorting her room, and she went crazy at the shop today! she even brought her a money box! I can feel she will be the favorite haha. So I better use the days that I am the only child very wisely.